|The front of a card my mother gave to my cousin when she had her first child.|
Happy Birthday, Mama. I love you to the moon and back and think about you every day. I tell Sabine about you as often as I can. Every time we see a crow, I hope that means you are somehow, maybe watching over us. I wish you could see her. You would fall in love with her just like I have. And I wish I could see you. And tell you that I finally understand how difficult and beautiful it is to be in this position. But also, I wish I could tell you that I finally have some understanding and knowing of how loved I was by you. And that's everything. Because now I know that it was the most.
It hasn't gotten easier, it's just been longer since you left. It was way too soon and nothing is the same. You made us better. We miss you. And maybe it's too painful and impossible to all be together without you. But today, we remember all of it and how much we love each other no matter what. And we celebrate the day you came into the world and made it a kind of beautiful that no one else could.
I hope that because I'm part of you, you're always with me...Laura